Whether anyone reads by blog or not, there surely is being that is nt just reading my blog but knowing everything in my heart and every word i am writing before it comes out my heart.
my Lord. my Allah.
As selfish as i am, turning to Him desperately in times of need. He has basically made me proud by giving me the feeling whenever i ask Him, i am never turned down. More mercful than anyone, most loving and caring and gentle. every word is enough. Sins drip from me, full of them, from head to toe, but His. He listens, loves me.
Ya Lord, my faith keeps bringing me, keeps me up. Know, in the heart of my heart that You Love me and will not turn me down. i am answered. i ask His Beloved as well, to ask Him for me, He listens too, Great BEing. What will the world say if you wont listen to me. Bless me, help me. in need of you. Like before. Like always. You have a special thing of picking me u when i am down, broken and lonely but You come in my Heart and take me out of all the darkness. Lord, i am already too much blessed. beyond my capacities. But please be kind to me like always. I know i dont come to you so often, and like this. But whenever You are there, for me. Fill my heart with light and peace and comfort. Basically telling you that takes my worry away because i know it will done. I swear i feel like this. Il be at peace now. That it will be done. Lord, show your blessing in this hour like all others. I kmow i am still grateful but You are kinder every time. Lord thats what You are. All love. Bless me Lord. Dont turn me down. Il be broken otherwise. You have endless to give, just give me one look. It is nothing for you Lord. See my tears. i know they are of anticipated gratefulness. see my hands Lord. shower on me. like always. Like You have always been. and forgive me for mu ungratefulness. Aaqa, i am scared help me. It is all thunderous and scary. Unconfortable. Please provide me with success and comfort. For you Beloved. For i am His as well. You listen to Him Ya Lord. You dont ever leave me empty handed, so many hands are open and waiting. Fill them. Please Lord.